ANDI GÁLDI VINKÓ: THE CREATIVE CRISIS OF MOTHERHOOD

DENIZ AKKAYA

Photographer Andi Gáldi Vinkó beautifully documents her attempts to take “control of the chaos” as both a mother and an artist.

Hungarian photographer Andi Galdi Vinko reflects on motherhood starting from her own personal experiences in her photo series “Sorry I gave birth I disappeared but now I’m back.” Her work combines images of pregnant women – mostly friends – portraits of their partners with their firstborn, exhausted women in the act of breastfeeding, children in their first years and photographs of transforming female bodies. The aim is to show the disruptions caused by the birth of a baby, especially on mother’s life, as realistically as possible. The pain experienced during childbirth is just an indication of what awaits a family, and especially a mother.

About Andi Gáldi Vinkó:

“Since I gave birth, since I have a child, I am not the same person.  Not because I grew up, or think of the meaning of life in a different way, but because there is this tiny human being I somehow ended up loving more than I ever loved before.  More than myself. More than my art. How am I supposed to believe in myself again?  In the meaning of creating? In creating a meaning?   This small selection of this work in progress-series, which eventually will always be a work in progress is about becoming, understanding, and remembering.  Trying not to forget all those things that once seemed so important, and the minute you think you know it another challenge appears.   How can something so universal as motherhood be so lonely.   How can something so universal as motherhood be so lonely.  How come we all have to experience it and there are no answers to all those struggles?  What about our bodies, our hormones, our thoughts, our friends, our loves.  Our careers, our homes, our dishes, our laundries, our sexual desires.  What happened to our freedom, our showers, our sleeping hours?    I love being a mother.  I also loved being an artist,” says about her new series.